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Regroup and refocus or risk getting lost
It's 10:40 pm and I'm sipping an RC Cola trying to get a hit of caffeine. My back is tired from carrying a basket of dirty laundry to the end of the block and I'm wiping sweat from my brow. It's obvious from my physique that I hate work.
In fact, I'm already a day behind. Laundry is a Sunday evening chore for me but somehow I managed to beg and plead into postponing it a day yesterday just so I'd not have to do it. The problem with procrastination is that it eventually catches up to you.
Why am I blogging about chores? Isn't it obvious, I hate work! Or... do I?
The past few months I've been growing more and more cynical. I don't know if it's my sense of empathy that simply won't "let things go" or if it's more, as my wife suspects, that I am not really sure what would make me happy. In her eyes, there's a void in me, an emptiness that I'm aware of but not sure how to fill. To her, I'm making busy work all day, every day, to fill this void.
She might be right.
I'm still critical of the government. It's hard to recognize this massive group of violent people and then just shrug it off. It's hard to see the ripple effects caused by those people's suppression of other people; the wealth destroyed, the potential unmet.
I've spent every waking moment the past few months thinking about those things. About moving to New Hampshire as part of the Free State Project and working to cast off the "chains of government". I chat on the Libervis Network about it, talk to my receptive co-workers about it, write letters to the Social Security people telling them "I'm done" and it makes me feel strong and powerful and alive and in control.
In all of that, though, I think I may have lost sight of something. Something very important. My goal.
I tell myself I don't like work, and maybe I really don't, but somehow I've managed to make that "work" an all consuming desire and forgotten that the work isn't the objective, but simply a goal to having a better life. Sometimes music is just beats and tunes but sometimes it manages to hit the nail on the head so perfectly that it can describe a feeling perfectly.
"So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same"
I'm going to be taking a little bit of time over the next period of X (X being "the amount of time I need") to focus on the positivity that is already in my life, and refocus on just why it is that I need to work and correct the things I see wrong in the world. Hopefully, I can remind others to do the same as well. Don't focus so hard on the process that you lose sight of the objective. Voluntaryism is all about the recognition that the super-majority of interaction already happens voluntarily and that interaction is good. Why then, when it's mostly good, do we obsess with the small minority that is not?
"Be the change you want to see". I want to be someone who is free. To do that, I must act. To be free, I need to move past the "not there yet" and focus on the "mostly there". Not doing that will make me crazy and crazy activist just aren't effective.
In fact, I'm already a day behind. Laundry is a Sunday evening chore for me but somehow I managed to beg and plead into postponing it a day yesterday just so I'd not have to do it. The problem with procrastination is that it eventually catches up to you.
Why am I blogging about chores? Isn't it obvious, I hate work! Or... do I?
The past few months I've been growing more and more cynical. I don't know if it's my sense of empathy that simply won't "let things go" or if it's more, as my wife suspects, that I am not really sure what would make me happy. In her eyes, there's a void in me, an emptiness that I'm aware of but not sure how to fill. To her, I'm making busy work all day, every day, to fill this void.
She might be right.
I'm still critical of the government. It's hard to recognize this massive group of violent people and then just shrug it off. It's hard to see the ripple effects caused by those people's suppression of other people; the wealth destroyed, the potential unmet.
I've spent every waking moment the past few months thinking about those things. About moving to New Hampshire as part of the Free State Project and working to cast off the "chains of government". I chat on the Libervis Network about it, talk to my receptive co-workers about it, write letters to the Social Security people telling them "I'm done" and it makes me feel strong and powerful and alive and in control.
In all of that, though, I think I may have lost sight of something. Something very important. My goal.
I tell myself I don't like work, and maybe I really don't, but somehow I've managed to make that "work" an all consuming desire and forgotten that the work isn't the objective, but simply a goal to having a better life. Sometimes music is just beats and tunes but sometimes it manages to hit the nail on the head so perfectly that it can describe a feeling perfectly.
"So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same"
I'm going to be taking a little bit of time over the next period of X (X being "the amount of time I need") to focus on the positivity that is already in my life, and refocus on just why it is that I need to work and correct the things I see wrong in the world. Hopefully, I can remind others to do the same as well. Don't focus so hard on the process that you lose sight of the objective. Voluntaryism is all about the recognition that the super-majority of interaction already happens voluntarily and that interaction is good. Why then, when it's mostly good, do we obsess with the small minority that is not?
"Be the change you want to see". I want to be someone who is free. To do that, I must act. To be free, I need to move past the "not there yet" and focus on the "mostly there". Not doing that will make me crazy and crazy activist just aren't effective.
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#1 Re: Regroup and refocus or risk getting lost
What an interesting coincidence that I've been finally reading to the end the book "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill and then subsequently am rapidly eating up another book based on it, called "Hidden Secret in Think and Grow Rich" by Brian Kim.
I think it deals with exactly the kind of thing you're talking about. In fact, it is waking up a sense of power in me that makes me truly and utterly believe that I can do and achieve anything I imagine. All I need is to set a signle definite purpose, so specific that I can visualize it in my mind as if I've already achieved it backed by a burning desire to achieve that purpose and such amount of faith (confidence) that I will achieve it that I can willingly burn my bridges behind and leave no recourse should I fail - because I KNOW, absolutely, I will succeed.
It is an incredibly empowering book. If you can't find them online I can send them to you, though the latter one is sold by briankim.net.
What these books describe seems almost magical or supernatural in how powerful it is. I mean, when I say that you can realize everything you *imagine* I mean it literally. It is almost akin to the process a replicator in Star Trek uses to create whatever you want it to create.
Well.. our minds are sort of replicators. And this IS possible.
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